I liked you

I liked you even though it tore through my insides every day i looked at you. I liked you even though i would panic each day over what to wear, fear that you'd notice me. I liked you even though i lost my breath every time your hand brushed my back. I liked you even though my friends told me not to. I liked you even though your views contradicted my own. I liked you even though you lived far away. I liked you even though i hated myself. I liked you even though you didn't notice me watching you. I liked you even though you just wanted to be friends. I liked you even though it ached when you made me feel my opinion mattered. I liked you even though my stomach pulsated aggressively as we danced those few minutes. I liked you even though you smoked. I liked you even though you didn't hang around with me or my friends. I liked you even though i felt sick each day i had to see you. I liked you even though you had a girlfriend. I liked you even though you had no girlfriend. I liked you even though you again had a girlfriend. I liked you even though you and I had moved further away. I liked you even though i knew you led me on. I liked you even though you had forgotten me. I liked you even though i had promised myself i did not. I liked you even though the thought of you with her makes me weak. I liked you even though i do not see you everyday. I liked you even though you were oblivious to the destruction you were causing me. I liked you even though i told myself over and over that i didn't. I liked you even though i could open up and because i could talk to you. I liked you even though your smile cut into me, when i told you how i felt for you. I liked you even though this smile had for a second given me hope. I liked you even though i was oblivious to the falseness in this new found joy. I liked you even though you told me you were flattered, and that you would think about it. I liked you even though you read poetry about someone other than me. I liked you even when you acted shocked at my declaration of love. I liked you even though you told me you liked me back but didn't want the distance to pull us apart. I liked you even though you led me further into a trap. I liked you even though it had been two years. I liked you even though you had no idea i still like you. I liked you even though it pains me even more now. I like you even though i say i don't.